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Updating

Well Hi everyone, it has been a while sinc i updated my blog. Alot being personal with the passing of my dear dad on the 9th April, It makes me very sad to even type it, I still can't believe he is not with us anymore. May be later i can write more.

Any way on to the weight loss, well i went back to ww about 5 weeks ago maybe even 6, i started with my mum and was doing fantastic for the first 4 weeks and lost 4.8kgs then for the last 2 maybe 3 weeks i have gone down hill, I weighin on a monday nights with mum and then doing the weighing on friday mornings, but i think i might start weighing in on Fridays but still go to the meeting on monday nights with mum, i am feeling really fustrated today as i just can't get back on track, Well i think i will get up tomorrow and started tracking again and start weighing on fridays that way i can weigh on Friday and not pig out till Monday.

I joined a mailing list that islandmumma set up and i am going to start using my blog more often. I am a big blog fan, I check peoples out regularly. Islandmumma I love your blog and check it daily . I think i will start taking photos of certain foods like you do, i would love my blog to be inspiring for someone else. Well i will answer the chalenge questions later tonight when the girles are in bed. talk soon.

this is my virtual model at 132kgs although i think i look bigger than that. and also my virtual model at 70kgs . i hope i look that good

Light bulb moment

I think i have finally had a light bulb moment, after trying the Tony Ferguson meal replacement diet which is very low in carbs for a whole 3 days this week, I have realised what works isn't starving your self or some new diet, it is counting my points and exercise, Oh der me, I have only been going to ww for a decade , all the support and program material i need is right in front of me every friday when i go and weigh all those people already doing what works, not that i didn't know it works it was more that i am always after the newest, quickest way to lose weight, in the past decade while being a weigh at my local meeting, even working for ww in their state office I have tried so many different ways to lose weight, Jenny Craig, Fernwood gym, reductil, 4321 detox,tony fergo,supermarket meal replacement shakes, low carb my own version, all of which have quite obviously not worked and also cost me alot of money. I do believe what works for some doesn't work for others, My brother and his wife are doing fantastic on the tony fergo, and i think that is great but , i think I have finally come to realisation that well I have 60kgs to lose I need to still live and enjoy myself which i can do with ww. but I need to break my normal cycle of weighing on friday then bingeing for the rest of the day which usually carries over to saturday and then even sometimes sunday then come Monday I realise friday will be here soon so i then track again and only lose a small amount and feel disappointed so then the whole thing starts again. as Ellen one of the leaders says if you only sort of do the the program you only sort of lose weight.

i need to make a commitment to myself to track 7 days aweek I still get treats I can still go out to dinner, i just need to realise what i want more to lose weight or to eat more. so from now on I will track and count y sugary points including my low fat ice cream bars which i want to see how it will effect my weight loss by counting them.

so Plan is as follows for the next week

Track everything I eat
watch my sugar points
Exercise regularly with at least one walk not all on exercise bike
drink more water

i am 30 in 25 weeks so i really want to commit myself to doing what works , waht i don't have to pay for and what i know i can still enjoy life.

i really want this for myself and I also for my beautiful family who deserve to have a happy and healthy mummy and wife.

My first mini goal is to get my 10kgs by easter so i have 6.3kgs to go

Cya Jill xxx

Oh I forget i am so excited to tell everyone i have start to take tap dance lessons, Jenny my girl-friend and i have been saying for ages we want to do the adults tap calls at our daughters dance school, well 2 weeks ago we start, wow i love it i never danced as a child, but said i wanted to learn when i lost weight, well i am not going to weight i am not going to ia m going to finally do something i have always wanted to. yeah for me!

this photo is of my 2 cheeky girls.my inspirations

I will do this till the end

Well after 6 weeks on ww i have lost 3.9kgs. Not what i was hoping for but i know it is good. I need to finally complete this journey. To tell you a little about myself, I am 29 and not far off 20 10 not 30, I am married to wonderful husband who is even closer to 20 10 actually next weekend. I have two beautiful daughters princess chat alot 41/2 yrs and angel little bugger 2 1/2, the other joys of my life. I am a weigher at our local ww and have been since i was 20 so yes nearly 10 yrs and i am actually about 40kgs heavier then when i first joined, yes i know i have had 2 kiddies. Anyway for the last well it actually feels like forever i have been trying to get under 100kgs last weigh in i was 129kgs. I always let Life get in the way, and deal with life ups and downs with food, so this year I need to turn my emotional eating around, so with much inspiration form the ww forum i have decided to start this blog of my journey to getting to my ideal size 16 , I think i am being realistic and well i wll see what happens when i get there.

This year will be a challenge, last May my very dear not very old dad 57 was diganosed with a brain tumour, actually gmb grade 4 brain cancer. this has been the hardest struggle of my life so far to see my dad been taken over by this disease, My dad is still bravely fighting this horrible disease, but it is very hard on all of us, especially my mum.
I know even with this going on i still nedd to concentrate on my goals , i have 2 young daughters who need me around. So i am choosing to do the very best I can at these hard times and work through emtional things not with food , maybe havng this blog will help. Anyway feel I am ramblingwill write more later./

This lovely photo of me is last winter but probably around the same weight.